17 posts from July 2007

Well I baby sat tonight to pass time since, I couldn't go anywhere. My neighbors kids are so funny, they are just fun as hell to play with. I danced and sang, chased, tackled, and then a horrible thing happened. One of the kids (Not my neighbors) spit in my face. Oh, all hell broke loose on that poor kid, since I hate anything in my face. I also really do not like germs and this kid looked like he had some sort of aids. Anyway continuing on..I tackled him, put my knee in his chest and started hocking a major lugey. I swear I am sick with allergies so it would have been a really good one, but I stopped. I knew if I did it his father would be pissed that an 18 year old girl spit in his 5 year olds face. So I told him if he apologized and never did it again that I wouldnt spit in his face. He apologized and looked rather scared as I gave him this look that said "I mean it boy I will do it" so he got up and we played again.

I hate kids but, I have to say this was rather fun.

Dale has lately been hanging out with a bad crowd. He has been drinking and shit like that, and I don't know if it is just rebellion of his father. Personally his father doesn't give a damn what he does and I guess he is taking it to the limit now. It scares the shit out of me because I care so much about him. He is my best friend and if I could I would give him the shirt off my back if I thought he would need it. I know I mother him a bit, but he needs someone to tell him how much they care by doing something like that.

Just five minutes ago he informed me he went drifting, and that he had hung out with Michael and Chase E. Which I know smoke pot and do shit that is wrong. I dont know what to do but watch him now down spiral, and I am trying my best to let him know right now, that i care for him. I dont want him in trouble because I would be upset. I am actually upset really bad right now while I right this. My dale is going in the wrong direction, and I cant do anything but watch.

To make myself smile tonight. It's my new hair.

My New hair

I edited this a lot. I have so much I want to say but, I dont want too.

Well recently I have been having oddly short posts because I dont want to talk about it but, I guess I should just get it out. Robby and Caitlin broke up, which I am happy about in an odd sense. I knew he would hurt her because he just wanted to be casual or just use her I assume. I am unsure his intentions but, I am sure that I hate him for it. Though I have been talking to him and he seems to be the same person. He told me that he didn't want to say he loved her and she got upset and they broke up. Caitlin also confirmed this, and was upset because she thought he would be with her for ever or something. I guess I am just not a strong believer of someone in highschool staying together for ever but, whatever.

Though he seems to be still hung up on me. I find it flattering and I love him still in a sense but, I think it is rather creepy to still have feelings for someone who dumped you and made you cry. I have horrible grammar and I dont really care.

Anyway he told me the other day that he would smile but, only for me. It seemed rather odd and I took it as an odd compliment. Though he changed his song on his profile and maybe I am just being Vain as I usually am but, this song makes me a bit scared. I feel like he is trying to tell me something with it now that I am talking to him again. It sort of freaks me out.

Its a song by Skillet called Whispers in the dark. Maybe I am just reading too much into it, but it scares the shit out of me. It is a rather dark song, and it sort of seems demanding.The song is at the bottom of the page.

__________________________ A Dream I had _______________

I would say last night, but I am unsure when it began, and I know it ended this morning at 8. I was in a foggy setting maybe in Ireland? I am unsure but, I was at a funeral. People I knew now were there but, it was as if I had no idea who they were. This woman took a picture of the body, and there was a small doll in the picture, and a glorious White figure beside the body. The doll was ghoulish and scary, and the White figure I assumed to be an angel.

We were all outside on this large hill and it began raining, as the woman came up to me. She looked like a Gypsy and had purple on and large earings. She was talking to my grandmother it looked like and was saying about this picture and how it had odd figures in it. Though my grandmother only saw white spots, and I was there standing beside her and could see the people. Then as if I knew what to do I looked at the casket and saw the doll figure there.[ I know I had to be crying in my sleep because I woke up with tears.] She saw me just sobbing and the gypsy woman came to me and held me close. She whispered "You can see her?" and when I nodded she told me something but, I can't remember or either it was muffled. Then I woke up, I mean just darted up in my bed. It scared me so badly and I can still picture the doll. It was so scary.

But to add too that the entire dream was as if I was under water. It was all swirly and odd. .like an acid trip I guess. Crazy.

Skillet-Whispers in the Dark

Skillet

Also I have been looking for hair cuts because tomorrow I have an appointment but, I am afraid to do anything. I just dont want to hate myself after I cut it. Sitting around all day is so boring but, I am glad that I did. I really have been running around too much. I think I dreamt because I ate before i went to sleep. It seems to always happen. >_<

10:01:14 PM) Whitney (Me): Especially if I said I made it and put love in it
(10:01:26 PM) Aaron: Id eat it all night long
(10:01:31 PM) Whitney (Me): Lol
(10:01:34 PM) Whitney (Me): Even if it was shit
(10:01:40 PM) Aaron: yep
(10:01:49 PM) Whitney (Me): Damn
(10:02:44 PM) Aaron: yep
(10:03:24 PM) Whitney (Me): thats sick

Well I recently heard about something which has me in a tizzy. It makes me think a bit about something that I should have just gave up on long time ago. However now that recent events have occured, it makes me start thinking about shit again. Really I need a reality check, so somebody please slap the shit out of me?

My last post was a song that I have on my Itunes, that made me think about these events. Truth be known I need to shut up. Aaron hit me please.

Lately I have been bored and have had nothing to put here. Really that is just terribly sad, and I am so damned bored that I am just crazy. I had fun yesterday with Double A- Alcoholics Anonymous and Squelsy. I really wish I could see transformers soon though. Wow! Anyway yesh, I petted a cute kitty.

Today however I am hanging out with Lee. I dunno how that is going to go, because she just pisses me off sometimes. I love her to death though. Any who, I am hungry! OFF TO THE KITCHEN!

I went to stay the night at a friends house last night, her name is christina. She is hularious and even if we have known each other forever I have never stayed at her house. So I did and this is the agenda:

1. Eat triskuts
2. Eat hot dogs
3. Watch But I'm a cheerleader
4. Eat chicken pies
5. Go swimming
6. Watch 28 days later
7. Eat chicken again
8. Watch Anchorman
9. Bed

But I'm a cheerleader is hularious. It is about a girl who is a cheerleader and is a lesbian. I love it. You should all watch it sometime.

End.

Last night was a blast, the three of us totally just jacked off for ever! We played around and acted stupid, watching some horribly dubbed Japanese movie called Azumi.

Then Brittany and I went to sleep watching the Black Daliah. I stayed up with her until 3 in the damned morning! I am so tired..and really hungry. :D Yay!