Well things have been going pretty great. I met a nice fellow, though of course on the I net. Which is pretty damn messed up. However Brittany knows him and apparently he isn't a stalker. However I am all against I net relationships, and long distance ones at that.
As well as that I am going to meet him when I go with Brittany to Anime USA, in November. That is if I get a C on my Midterms, and get my homework for the days I am going to be gone. His name is Han Sol, and he is Korean. I don't really want to hear anyone saying "Whitney you shouldn't do that..its dangerous." cause I pretty much will agree with you.
I will see once I meet him, and such. It'll be around a lot of people, and Brittany..so I am not too worried about rape. Like he would..or I would rape him XDD
Anyways lets see I am nearly failing anatomy, and everything else is B's. Which is amazing, and I love it.
Uhhh...Chorus is killing me. I really am beginning to hate it because I am never with friends, and I am always gone.
I lost my Batman phone, and got a new one in the mail today. It is nice, and I will activate it tomorrow. So I will need everyone's phone numbers.
Uhhh..Thats it :D
I am tired of all the pretending people do. Pretending to like someone, pretending to love, or even pretending that everything is okay even when it isn't. I wish sometimes people could just be real with themselves, and tell themselves that they need to get a grip.
Dont take out anger on someone else, don't say hello to someone only to whisper afterward how much you hate them. Dont ask someone why they aren't talking to you when, you know the answer. Then don't pretend like it really mattered that they weren't speaking when you hate them anyway. Let's all just be real with ourselves, and each other for once.
I am tired of all the pretending. I am tired of all the lies we tell ourselves, and tell to other people. Lets just be truthful. Lets just say exactly what we mean, and when we need help. When we feel bad, and when we dont give a fuck. Everyone just needs some reassurance, and sometimes everyone just wants a bit of time alone. Just dont lie anymore, and dont ignore the fact that you need someone, or hate someone, or love them.
Just tell the truth how it is, and then we all could be a bit happier in the end.
I just stabbed myself in the hand with a knife. On accident mind you and I started to cry, but once I looked, and thought a moment. I realized it really didn't hurt, that I had just scared myself.
I think that is why children cry, is they are just scared, not that they are in any sort of pain. Now that I think about it, I really havent cried about anything in so long. It was really great I guess to cry a moment, but now I have a small cut on my hand, and a new sense of pain.
Whitney is becoming slowly less and less human. ^ ^ and it makes her smile.
Tonight mom cooked, and I really am a bit scared as to how she knew I wanted something. I was thinking about deviled eggs and she said she was making them. It is so weird that she and I have some odd connection, I do also with my grandmother. The women of my family all seem to have some gut instinct when the other is sad, or upset. It's really nifty. I wish everyone had that.
Also I watched The Stand. I love that movie.
Have you ever heard something that you know could not be true? Sure it is a rumor maybe but, then again it made me a bit afraid. I want to ask the person if it is true but, it is one of those things that isnt nice to ask. So here I will sit without asking thinking to myself "What the fuck?" anyway..I just hope the truth will come out soon.
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Little by little I see whats really going on. I am alright with it, and I really have learned to look by it. Some how people think being a super ass is alright? But really it just makes me angry. I suppose you all dont understand people have feelings. Talking to someone about someone is bad, I know but, when it is someone you thought would not say anything I believe thats normal. To blab to that person is fucked up, and to have them act bitchy to you is even worse. Because now Whitney will be bitchy, and you will hate her for it.
Though I believe I will just kill you both with Kindness because in gods book that's the way. Turn the other cheek. When this cheek gets raw however, thats when your going to learn that I cant take your shit any longer. Just remember that.
It was pretty great. I spent time with my Twinkies, but mostly my brittany face. I loves her :D
I
met one of her friends, and he is pretty nice. Han Sol, whatever face.
I also met Josh Hilaree's boyfriend, he is a turd muncher :D
Lets see adding to that we played some serious twister, which was great fun, and made french toast.
The next day I went to my other friends Kari's house. She is a funny mug, we were like on crack all day. We couldn't pain our fingernails from all the laughter.
Then we went off to Denny's and made a creep stalker friend, came home made brownies, and then played twister. Seriously Twister is fucking fun. I wanna just get a big ass party and play twister with people that i know.
Then today I went muddin' in the jungle. Well the woods, but it was like a jungle. We ran around, and the boys picked me flowers. More like weeds it looked like but, it was amazing. I may get a picture from stephen of me in a tree. I asked him like a minute ago to send it to me. But, anyway it was amazing to climb the tree.
He called me and woke me up, I just threw on clothes and went. Man I looked like shit. Then we went out to eat and everyone was in church clothes but us. We were covered in mud from head to toe. It was amazing.
The rest of the day I slept, and now I am doing homework.
Great weekend. Thanks people.
I want to run for homecoming...
Oi, I know that sounds disgusting, but really i think I do. Not to be popular or to win, just to run, or at least let people see nerds can run too. Ya? Nerdy ya? Anyway If anyone thinks it's a bad idea just let me know.
Walgreen's in Kernersville sucks so bad, because I had to pay 55 dollars to get ink cartages, when I could have gotten them filled. Though no..Walgreen says they don't have the technology to do it. What is wrong with the world?
Well today was pretty awesome, I got my Concert Choir dress, and it is very big. I swear I could have gotten a size smaller. Though whatever, I will just get it taken up. Anyway what else happened today? Hm... Oh yeah, I saw the cool mascot prank. I want to do a senior prank sheeze, it looks fun. Also I am using many Britt terms, I blame too much time watching BBC America. I can't help it, I just love Dr. Who, and this talk show. I can't remember the name but, some how I just want to say Eddie Izzard. Though I know that's wrong. However I really like calling my stove the cooker, and using the word bollocks. Really friends are so funny when I say things they don't understand.
Lets thinks...I got a 65 on anatomy test, really that wasn't surprising.
A 73 on math which floored me really, as I really suck at math. And . . lets think...oh that's about it.
Also I took a long nap today, and feel rather refreshed! Thank goodness because, I really do get tired after coughing all day at school. Last night I sneezed ten times in a row, isn't that funny!
To add on since really i have nothing else to do but, waste time here..I got a livejournal too. I really liked a layout I saw and made one, plus Brittany and Hillaree are on there. So I am there too if you wanna know. Which I know you dont.
I also am in love with the french language. I am listening to some really nice songs by Marie Mai. Her voice is amazing!
I wish I could speak french because it makes me happy inside.
There is a cute boy in my lunch that I believe is german. I think he moved here from Germany though I am unsure. However I am getting the nuts to talk to him tomorrow. Damn blonde hair blue eyes. :D
Working sucks. I don't know if I could do it everyday. Sure I had a blast but, I am so damned sore, and now on top of that I am sick. I have a cold, and every time I cough, my chest hurts. I feel like I have worked out, which is good I supose.
Today I worked hard, and bee's attacked. I didn't get stung but, some how everyone else managed too. I was sticky from head to toe, and the sun made me get sick, and I had to drink. Dehydration is a bitch. Though even still I had a fun day. Over all I met some new people, and talked to old men about football. We made just by selling lemonade, icecream, and pretzles, 30 grand. Though the choir only gets 3 grand, I think that is a good bit. We have to work 5 more games, and two races. We are going to go to new york basically free bish. ^ ^
The Fish Has spoken.
